Pitt-ed

Its painful to change but one must evolve, The heart bleeds to let go but nothing was yours.
It snows outside but the fire burns within, Sleep I must but its not yet time.
--Me

10 'lessons' were realized in the week gone by. Some would stick and the rest would melt away- what would remain is a changed myself.

1. People are different when one is away as compared to being in constant touch. This is a flaw in how the brain perceives relationships and the manner in which humans nurture expectations. Familiarity breeds contempt and ignoring it leads to mental agony.
   
2. Its important to talk about problems in a relationship ONLY if one cherishes the presence of the other person in one's life. It needs to be done with tender yet firm words. The other person should be told how important he/she is for you in CLEAR terms. If not, forget about it.
   
3. It is "easier" for Americans to be rash and overlook other's feelings. They will have the best explanations in the world for it, the underlying fact being that they just cannot help it.
   
4. Females and males react differently to situations. Its in the genes, blame God for it. Its not just the female who "thinks" a lot about relationships and cries. Guys do it too.
   
5. I was so much at peace when I cared less. When I do, I feel like being chained.
6. Friends take notice when I use the word "Lord" instead of "God" or "bhagwaan".
7. A friend wanted to slap and tell me to stop acting like a kid. It never happened. I am sad but its good to be patient.
   
8. My reputation precedes me to a lot of places. Its tough fighting myself.
9. I am really enjoying my psychology oriented classes. Negotiations and Professional Writing have already added so much to me in a week. I am thinking a lot more freely now (as if it was not enough already!).
10. Six second of silence is enough to unnerve most people into speaking something which they rather would not have spoken.

I have an unanswered question- Is it correct to talk about someone's characteristic behavior which might be inappropriate at times? Or should one choose to ignore them? Who the person is matters a lot- but how does one decide if one is bordering on hurting someone as compared to genuinely wanting to help? How much is the 'cultural difference' discount? How much of subtle insult and bugging is enough? How would I know if "I" am the person myself someday?

I sat outside in the cold past midnight for more than an hour watching cars go by. Thoughtful? No. Brooding? Maybe. Hopeful? Yes!!

ps: The biggest lesson- People rarely tell you what they think about you and more often than not the truth is not what one would like to hear.